Power in patience
I have a word giving me resistance this week – and the word is patience. There is several definition of patience:
the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay:
Living a life in patience in todays society when all happens and must happen fast, is not easy. So I search within me for the patience that seems to be absent in my mind and thoughts. I want all to happen now and better yet two months ago. The ego craves to have it all figured out and finished, for me to be good enough. Instead of inspiring me, it brings a feeling of lack. The feeling of lack brings about a hurriedness and absence of love, compassion and happiness. So the restlessness and annoyance is for real present. I meditate to keep my thoughts centered and grounded, but it only helps so much.
Absence of patience manifests in my life in several ways. My handstand practice is a BIG one. Instead of gradually strengthening parts of my body to accomplish the position I try to skip levels and go right to the top. I feel agitated, frustrated, and even scared when attempting handstand. How come I haven’t gotten any further? Why am I still here? Patience doesn’t seem to reflect growth or change. But it is – I realize that now. When I allow myself to rest and just be. I can grow into what I want the most and still be content with what I am and have in my life. No need to push but allow patience and more quietness and love. It is so much power in patience. Power for full expression and living in the now mindfully. Allowing it all to be as it is and know that everything is changing.
I manifest for myself a new career by allowing myself to fully be where I am and be patient. The universe has something bigger for me. Thank you for all that is. The next weeks I will work with my restlessness as a friend and allowing the power of patience to work through me.
Have beautiful moments in your life as it is.